For me, there is a great sense of comfort in knowing that my life, and all things are under the sovereignty of God. Something about it makes me feel that I am safe even in the middle of a whole lot of chaos, personal trials, and heartaches.
What is sovereignty? In case you have not read my first post on this Is God Sovereign?, here is the shortened Theopedia definition:
The Sovereignty of God is the biblical teaching that all things are under God’s rule and control, and that nothing happens without His direction or permission.
I totally believe that God is over all things, even though I cannot fathom how all of that really works.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. Psalm 139:6 KJV
I am aware that this teaching is difficult for some to accept. For some, it makes God a monster because he “lets” such horrific events happen. But I view it as God bringing about his purposes of which I may never understand nor comprehend. It’s bigger than me.
So how does knowing God is sovereign provide me comfort? It is almost unexplainable, but I will try. I have been through many trials in my life where I really just could not understand or figure out why some very hard things happened in my life if God loved me, beginning with the loss of my mother. I was just 22 years old. I was a new bride living on the opposite side of the country in Pensacola Florida when I learned that my mom had passed away.
I was devastated. This was my mom. She had just been at work the week before. She was only 44 years old. She had gone into the hospital just that week to which one of my aunts, when they called me to tell me, they said “girl, she’s alright”. No need for me to panic, however, just a few days later she was gone.
I had prayed for my mom. Just a month before I had written her a letter thanking her for how much she meant to me and how much I appreciated her. But God took her. Why? I don’t know. I didn’t get mad at God but was extremely hurt, and at a loss.
I just had to move on, and trust God. Later, my husband for whom I saved myself for had cheated on me. How could this be? However, I forgave him, but saw continued evidence of his cheating. We divorced after six years.
I knew now that I would never trust my choices again. I am too subject to mistaking what appears to be good as good, only to learn later that it was not good. I begged God to help me in my decisions. I had met someone who professed Christ, who had a seemingly powerful testimony. We married after only one month of dating. Was I listening to the God I trust?
Now, I am in a relationship with him my little children, who I believe loved them and loved me, but he had a secret. I believe that he believed that he was delivered, perhaps wanted to be delivered. He also had a violent temper. That was no secret. On the one hand, he would be the most vivacious person in the room, but when alone he could let out so much venom, I was frightened.
Again, what did I do wrong? Did I miss the cues? I wanted, begged God to deliver me from this pit that I found myself in. I remember wishing God would stop him from speaking, it hurts; give him cancer of the tongue, but nothing happened.
I had to learn how to fight; not physically, but fight. I came upon a scripture during this very dark period in my life, though, I must state that no one at church other than those close to me would ever know the pain I was going through. The scripture that carried me:
Wherefore let them that suffer according to the will of God commit the keeping of their souls to him in well doing, as unto a faithful Creator. I Peter 4:19 KJV
That scripture was the beginning of my deliverance. It made me aware that nothing that I was going through was not seen by God. I am his child. I knew that God loved me and saved me through his Son; therefore, nothing that happens to me would be out of his reach to rescue me.
I also knew that God uses trials to make us strong, and to make us more like him.
That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ. I Peter 1:7 KJV
Yes that is a hard saying. Some of you may be thinking I had lost my mind. I suppose in one way, I had. For I was willing to go through knowing God was with me. He was my strength, my help. I did learn of his secret; but I never, ever confronted him about it. God brought me through that fire; unscathed physically, and I praise him for that.
I find that the more I read the Word of God, and hear the Word of God, I am more saturated with the word of God. The Word of God is what caused me to believe in the Sovereignty of God. I have seen the sovereignty of God displayed throughout my entire life.
I became convinced and trusted that everything that happens to me will work out for my good; the good and the bad. (Romans 8:28) I trusted that when I applied for jobs, I would get the job if God wanted me to have it. God would move upon the decider’s heart and cause them to select me. Now that did not remove any responsibility on my part to do adequate preparation. Sometimes I adequately prepared and did not receive the positions. Then there were times, I adequately prepared and I did receive the position.
I trusted God’s word.
The king’s heart is in the hand of the Lord, as the rivers of water: he turneth it whithersoever he will. Proverbs 21:1 KJV
I may sound naïve to some. I assure you that I am not. I just know in whom I believe. I know that he is in control of all things, and while I cannot fathom how he can be concerned with me and the affairs of my life, while there are nations, and billions of people, some of which are also his, he attends.
This umbrella of his Sovereignty, yes, gives me great comfort. It’s much like a parent watching their child in a park, and the child looks back to make sure they are still watching. Their watching gives the child assurance that they are safe. I have that assurance.